As someone who has always put my friends before myself throughout my life- someone who constantly worries about the happiness of those I cares about…I feel even more lost now that I feel like I have no friends who care that much about me. 

I am in the strangest place right now.  Lost in every sense of the word.  Terrified that I will be lonely the rest of my life (not just in a romantic way, but in every sense of the word) and never find success in anything.  A hunger to be included and just get a sense of acknowledgment from others. 

I can’t say that I am hurting because honestly- I’m not feeling anything.  Just alone.