January 2011
44 posts
Last night was so wonderful.
I think it was because I didn’t have to censor my nerdiness at all.
Very few people REALLY know how nerdy I can be. None of my friends from recent years, even, know how bad I can get.
Last night I went to see Wicked with one of my friends from the nerdiest point of my life and I honestly felt like I was 15 again. I didn’t need to censor myself...
Short version of last night
Book clubber #1: I’m in rehearsals for Jersey Boys. Its awesome.
Book clubber #s 2 & 3: Elf just closed, but it was awesome.
Book clubber #4: I’m in NYC for a couple nights on my days off from the Mary Poppins tour. I’m hoping to get transferred to the NYC production. It is awesome.
Book clubber #5: I’m leaving The Addams Family in March and taking a break from NYC...
Book club tonight. I made brownies.
The book took forever to get into, but I actually enjoyed it by the end. Really long and a shit ton of characters to remember, but good. (Although I stopped believing the story towards the end. Wah wah)
I still giggle when I start getting emails from all of these lovely Broadway ladies right before book club.
Although I feel really awkward and out of place. I will probably just bring my brownies and sit silently. Even though I read the entire 600 page book of depression.
cream-coloredponies:
Light
Next to Normal
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In other news- I am a lot more messed up than even I knew.
Right now I am a giant mess of a non-functional human being.
Steps to recovery?
I almost just started crying because I just posted a bunch of photos and then had a notification that someone commented on a photo. When I clicked on the notification and went to see what it was- they had commented on a photo from almost two years ago about how tan someone used to be.
And now I think my photos are crap. GoodnessI’mJudgementalThankGodIAmGettingHelp.
Biofeedback is one of the most incredible scientific…things…I have ever witnessed. I hope it really helps me.
Seriously amazing technology.
The problem with setting goals- even minor ones- for the week- is that when you don’t accomplish them you feel like a failure.
Le sigh.
http://www.broadway.com/shows/anything-goes/buzz/15... →
Well…atleast she is finding the book interesting. I simply can’t get through it. Le sigh.
Cancer is a mysterious sign, filled with contradictions. They want security and comfort yet seek new adventure. They are very helpful to others yet sometimes can be cranky and indifferent. Cancer has a driving, forceful personality that can be easily hidden beneath a calm, and cool exterior. The crab is Cancer’s ruling animal and it suits them well, they can come out of their shell and...
Tonight’s messages have been sent. Time for bed. Goodnight moon. Goodnight world.
So excited for my girl Cai who is going on for Crissy on tour for the first time out in LA. I saw her go on when she did it on the Broadway and she was FANTASTIC. Of course I’m biased, buuuuuut so happy she is rocking the Hair tribe!
Also- loving reconnecting with old cast members/directors/etc. Was both a resolution and a recommendation from my Dr. Things are okay.
“As your friend I would do anything I could to help you reach your dreams…but you don’t need me.”
Getting these letters- it is never ever going to get any easier. Goodness I miss him. I miss my friend and I hate that the world still sees race as a factor.
I miss that summer so much right now.
Goals for the week:
5 emails a night (originally was 10- but I don’t think I have enough people to contact…)
3 trips to the gym
Find a meet up!
Start biofeedback training on Friday.
Hope this works.
I miss friendship. A whole lot.
Taking a big step (hopefully) forward in my life tomorrow.
Saramaile- I am doing you proud. Thank you for making sure I knew this was good for me- and not scary…
Addiction= Typing “Trader Joe’s” into the tumblr search box and reading people’s posts about TJs for a good half hour.
Probably going tomorrow with my roommate. Addiction. A major addiction.
I just cooked almost everything in my pantry/freezer.
Teriyaki chicken strips (trader joe’s)
Chicken lo mein (trader joe’s)
Teriyaki glazed chicken breasts (trader joe’s)
Butternut squash risotto (whole foods)
Possibly making some pasta as well.
Meanwhile I had broccoli and a sweet potato for dinner. This is all for later in the week. When I am too lazy to cook.
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Finally returned to my NYC blog. Do any of my tumblr followers want it/not have it?
You know what would also make things better?
A great photo shoot. Too bad all of my photo shooting friends are either home or out on tour.
Sad face.
(I am trying to get my sad/angsty self out before tomorrow- because I am starting my new year tomorrow…)
